I Am The Eternally Frustrated One. I Am The Wanderer On The Inside, Because I Feared Wandering Outside

Who Am I?

"I Am The Eternally Frustrated One."

"I Am The Once Young Man Who Felt The Pull, The Urge, The Need, To Cast Everything Aside, Take A Chance, And Just Wander Freely, Exploring The World, Heart On My Sleeve."

"I Am The One Who Year After Year, Urge After Urge, Squashed The Feeling Down, Redirected It, Channeled It, Ignored It,
Because,
I Was Afraid Of It.
Afraid Of The Wandering.
Afraid Of The Being Cold.
Afraid Of The Being Hungry.
Afraid Of The Unknown..."

"I Am The Cowardly One."
"The One That Wanted To, But Couldn't."

- so what happened -

"I Am A Wanderer On The Inside, Because I Cannot Make The Sacrifice To My Outside."

"I Am The One Who Does Not Have The Eagle Eyes Outwardly, But Who Pictures Them From Safety."

"I Am The One Who Could Not Do Himself...
But...
Will Lay The Foundation For Others To Do So."

"I Am The One Who Could Not Give To Himself...
And Thus Will Give To All The Himselves Who Also Never Had A Guide To Making Their Life A Worthy One."

The ONLY Way For A Person To "Truly" Grow : Follow Their Heart

"I Believe That The Only Way For A Person To "Truly" Grow
- And, By That I Mean, Truly Penetrate Past The Layers Upon Layers Of Lies, Rationalizations, And Self-Doubts Which Cause A Person To Be A Hunchback Of A Human Being -
Is To 'Follow Their Heart' Honestly And Openly.
To Let Their Heart And Feelings Guide Them.
To Spend As Much Time As Needed Communing With One's Own Feelings When Faced With A Trying Decision Or Feeling At A Crossroads.